I HATE that Kitty's mask is so perfect that she can even convince the hospital staff that she's "cured" as soon as she gets homesick. The school thinks she's mostly "fine," even though she's been hospitalized 7 times this year (3 times this month!). They're ignoring all the reports from the doctors and therapists, because obviously Kitty's issues are "all at home.' Even when Kitty is at her most unstable she usually only "acts in" when in public.
Her self-esteem is almost nil, and she is desperate for the approval of others. She can't handle even the slightest criticism. As she says all the time, she would "rather die,' then let someone see her issues. She only "lets down her hair" at home where she feels safe (and occasionally in therapy). No matter how much I push her to advocate for herself, and let the school know when she's suicidal and needs support, it's barely a whisper.
I'm so sick of looking like I have Munchhausen by proxy. I'm tired of taking her to the hospital every other week. I'm tired of fighting so hard. She's currently in the hospital again, but she'll have to go back to school when she gets out, and they've made it clear they aren't going to make any more accommodations (which means she'll be right back in the hospital). She needs me, but I'm so drained.