This blog is my place to vent and share resources with other parents of children of trauma. I try to be open and honest about my feelings in order to help others know they are not alone. Therapeutic parenting of adopted teenagers with RAD and other severe mental illnesses and issues (plus "neurotypical" teens) , is not easy, and there are time when I say what I feel... at the moment. We're all human!

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Bear on the bus


Bear turned 19 a few days ago (which signifies the end of our adoption subsidy with the state we adopted him from).  I was looking forward to "proving" to him that we will still love and care for him even though we're not getting "paid" for it anymore.  He gave us that chance at midnight last night.

He's been living with his biograndfather for the last 6 weeks since graduating from high school a couple of months ago.  He'd moved out of our home back in January (evil parents that we are, we'd insisted that he do a couple of household chores or lose his iPod -so he moved out).  6 weeks is the longest he's ever managed to live with someone (besides us), so we were half way expecting him to be moving on soon.

At midnight he calls and says biomom backed out of paying for his bus ticket to go live with biograndparents in Nebraska, and the biograndpa he's been living with had dropped him off at the bus station in the city where Biomom lived and then had driven home (2 hours).  I knew biomom had moved to Nebraska a month ago so he must be lying about something (well, probably everything).  {Sorry Biomom if you didn't want him to know you'd moved.  We didn't know that he didn't know.} 

Hubby was exhausted from teaching scuba all day, and had to get up at 5am the next morning and is a softer touch than I am, so while he did use this to force Bear to talk about some details of Bear's current life, Hubby went ahead and bought him a ticket.  Bear even said thank you, although he didn't apologize for yelling at Hubby, even after Hubby reminded him that it wasn't smart to yell at someone over a problem they didn't make, and when you want them to do you a huge favor!

Some of the info we got from Bear (very little of which I believe).


  • Is he signed up to join the Navy? - Yes, he's supposed to go at the end of the month (? since it IS the end of the month, I'm assuming he means August).
  • Is he still working at the marina near his grandpa's house?  - No, he got laid off and was doing construction work.
  • Why doesn't he have his own money to pay for this trip?  - He's had to pay $250/week to his Grandpa for rent, PLUS water (Bear takes at least one 45+ minute shower a day!) and food.  Plus $200/week for car insurance and he was only making $450/ week at the job he no longer has.  I don't know if he ever paid for the damage to the car he was borrowing.
  • Does he still have a phone?  - (He was allegedly calling us using the phone of a fellow traveler he met at the bus station!).  He's out of minutes, but can still text for free.  {Veriz*n has been calling our house often trying to reach him about his phone bill).
  • Is he planning to return to his Grandpa's house, which is where we sent his birthday card?  - Yes.
  • What is he going to do about being unemployed?  - He's planning on getting a job in Nebraska with his uncle.


His stories conflicted, weren't rational and were pretty much unbelievable.  In short, nothing's really changed. *sigh*

I had Hubby let him know that the benefits coordinator we had working on his SSI (who was supposed to send it in at the beginning of June, but apparently didn't!), now had some questions for him that I couldn't answer (his daily schedule for example).  He said he'd call her.  When his disabilities do qualify him for SSI, it will be interesting to see if the military catches on any time soon - assuming he really has applied to the military and they believe the lies he'd have to tell to be accepted.

4 comments:

j and s (but mainly s) said...

Hi, I've been following your blog for a while because I'm a social worker and I love hearing foster/adoptive parents stories. You are incredibly patient and I have no idea how you do what you do!!

Have you thought about linking him to transitional living/independent living services? I don't know what's available in your area, or the area where Bear is living now, but it might be helpful to have some extra support. I would be going crazy if I were you right now. Maybe something like this could help http://www.youthvillages.org/what-we-do/transitional-living.aspx

marythemom said...

j and s - Thanks for the suggestion. I had Bear hooked up with several different programs locally, but he refused to work with them, and since he was 18 and not labeled as "disabled" he HAD to cooperate to get them. He cut ties with us months ago so we weren't able to help him with transition stuff as he graduated, and the school had him convinced he was "normal" and didn't really need them anyway.

He doesn't make the connection between the fact that he can't hold a job for more than 6 weeks and his disabilities. He blames it on others. The problem is that NO ONE really makes the connection. He slips under the radar because he can get a job.

Mary

Lisa said...

I really feel bad that you feel the need to "prove" once again that you are there for Bear in spite of not receiving the monthly subsidy check. I don't know how it's gotten to this point with some of our kids, but when in the world was it any of our business how much money our parents made or what kind of benefits they received from work (insurance, 401K, whatever)? I feel like the normal, healthy boundaries between parents and children have just been pushed too far for too long and now we "owe" them proof of something. What? You have proven yourself every single day Bear lived under your roof. HE made the decision to leave - that's not something you could have changed. It truthfully doesn't matter whether he wanted to reject you before you rejected him when the subsidy ran out - that was nonsense thinking to begin with.

Be careful how you "help" him from this point forward. Helping him/proving something to him can be manipulated into enabling him. The fact that he was lying to hubby the whole time does not bode well.

I feel for you - I have been there recently. The fact is, the first few times you say no are the hardest. It most definitely gets easier the more opportunities he gives you to practice it. He is an adult. He is making his decisions with no input from you whatsoever (per his choice). Now is the time for him to figure out "HOW" he is going to make things happen in the big 'ol world out there. You have to remember that he seems to be content living with alot less than you wanted for him and much less than what you provided for him when he lived at home. Don't make this about what you want for him instead of what he's willing to work for on his own.

marythemom said...

Thank you Lisa. I needed to hear this. I do have to say it was Hubby who gave him the money. I seem to have a much easier time saying no to him! (Which of course is why he called Hubby instead of me.)

Mary